Valentine’s Day 2024, began like any other day. But it ended as one I
will never forget—the day I was diagnosed with cancer. Initially, it was breast
cancer. Within weeks, we learned it had spread to my liver. My official
diagnosis was Stage 4 invasive lobular carcinoma on the right breast with
metastasis to the liver and Stage 1A invasive ductal carcinoma on the left
breast (ER+, PR+, HER2-). The prognosis was devastating: a 30% chance of living five years.
I was 53 years old, a single mother to my 13-year-old son, and suddenly,
everything about my future felt uncertain. I felt the weight of a diagnosis
that didn’t just affect me but my entire family. Would I see my son grow up?
Would I have the strength to fight?
Even in those first moments, I knew I
couldn’t give up. I had to dig deep and decide how I was going to face this
challenge.
In the days after my diagnosis, I reflected on my life and the many
valleys I had walked through. Time and again, I’d seen God show up in ways that
were undeniable. He often uses us most powerfully in our struggles, not in our
triumphs.
I realized I had a choice to make: I could let this diagnosis define me
as a victim, or I could choose to be victorious. I prayed deeply, asking God
for wisdom, strength, and clarity. I decided that no matter what the outcome, I
would use this journey to glorify Him. My prayer was for complete physical
healing, but I also asked for spiritual and emotional healing—no matter where
the path would lead.
In late April, my church held a prayer service for me, and it was a
moment of profound spiritual healing. Almost 100 people gathered—friends,
family, and church members—to pray over me, read Scripture, and worship
together. There was an outpouring of love and hope that night. I felt a peace
that surpassed understanding, a kind of healing that went far beyond the
physical.
“Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church
to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the
Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well;
the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be
forgiven. Therefore, confess your sins to each other and pray for
each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is
powerful and effective.” James 5:14-16
It was during
this time that I learned to live fully in the present. I encouraged everyone
there to stop waiting for a life-changing diagnosis to start appreciating the
gift of today. Live in the now. Make memories. Don’t let the past or future rob
you of the beauty of the moment.
After starting hormone therapy (tamoxifen to block hormones and ribociclib as a cell cycle inhibitor), I began researching alternative options
to support my treatment. That’s when I discovered a repurposed medication called
Fenbendazole, an anti-parasitic medication (see more under Medications & Dosing) with promising research
suggesting potential cancer-fighting properties. My oncologist didn’t
discourage me from trying it, so I added it to my regimen. I prayed for wisdom
and believed that God placed this information in my path for a reason. I became
my own advocate, researching, asking questions, and taking charge of my
treatment plan.
After two months of treatment, I had my first MRI. The results were
astonishing: the tumor tissue had shrunk by 50%. My oncologist remarked,
“You’re responding to this treatment better than I usually see.” Her words were
a testament to the power of prayer, faith, and hope.
After four months of treatment, we conducted a full-body PET scan and breast MRI. The
results were nothing short of miraculous: No Evidence of Disease (NED) in both
my liver and breasts. My oncologist revised my prognosis, increasing my chance
of surviving five years to 95%.
“You restored me to health and let me live.” Isaiah 38:16
I remember sitting in that office, overwhelmed with gratitude. I had
prayed for healing, and I believe with all my heart that God heard me.
During my treatment, I experienced an outpouring of love and support
unlike anything I’d ever known. Friends and family visited me, called, and
shared how much I meant to them. It felt like I was “living my funeral” in the
best way possible—hearing stories of how I’d touched people’s lives while I was
still alive to appreciate them.
It made me realize how important it is to tell people what they mean to
you while you have the chance. So, I made it a point to express my gratitude
and love to everyone in my life.
Cancer has a way of stripping life down to its essentials. I learned to
treasure the small things—sunshine on my face, a laugh with my son, or a quiet
moment of prayer. I learned to lean on my faith more than ever before, trusting
that God was with me every step of the way.
The biggest lesson, though, was the power of hope. Hope isn’t about
pretending that everything is okay; it’s about believing that better days are
ahead. It’s about finding the courage to face each day with strength, even when
the odds seem impossible.
If you’re facing a cancer diagnosis, know this: you are not alone. There
are people who love you, a community that wants to support you, and a God who
is walking with you every step of the way.
Be your own advocate. Pray, research, and explore all your options.
Listen to your medical team, but don’t be afraid to ask questions or look for
alternative ways to support your healing.
Most importantly, hold onto hope. Healing comes in many forms—physical,
spiritual, and emotional. I prayed that God, the ultimate Healer, would guide
me, and I believe He did. My story isn’t just about surviving cancer; it’s
about finding purpose and sharing hope with others.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11
This is so inspiring!! Love you and so thankful you stepped outside the box and did your research!!! -Susan 😊
ReplyDeleteThank you! Love you too!
DeleteI am overjoyed at this and found tears welling up and spilling over my face despite my efforts to avoid it. Your healing cascades out and touches so many. Thank you for the privilege of witnessing it and renewing my faith that I have purpose left in this life.
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DeleteDear thank you so much for the blog. I needed to hear this today. I am also on the same diagnosis and taking treatment. I was on remission only for 8 months the reoccurrance happened on the brain stage 4 metastatic. I am prayerful somehow I had fear and doubts. Your message reminded me God is Faithful and He gave us His only Son if I believe in Him I will see everlasting life. Thank you. God bless you with good health, prosperity and long life
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ReplyDeleteMy 33 year old daughter was just was diagnosed with stage four breast, lymph and liver cancer (ER+, PR- and HER2 - ) also. She will start Ribociclib, Lupron Shot and Letrozole. She would love to talk with you about this and find out what else you did and how to deal with these meds. Most people do chemo, surgery and radiation but since it has metastasized, that is not an option. Please reach back to me! I left an email with The Woodlands group. We are in Houston as well. Thanks! 🙏🏻
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